Second Chance

It's been a very long time since I wrote a blog post, but I guess I have a lot I want to say, and I just wanted to write instead of recording a video this time around.

Let's cut to the chase (before I give you the story). I'm pursuing music again. Properly this time. Truth is, music broke my heart many years ago, and when something breaks your heart, it's difficult to give it a second chance.

If life has taught me anything, it's that everyone and everything deserves a second chance. You're stronger than you were, wiser than you were, you know what you want, and now you're willing to take the risks, throw yourself out there, and do what's necessary to make your dreams happen.

I'm chasing a lot of dreams in life - acting, content creation, podcasting (the list goes on and on). But music was my first. Over ten years ago I gave up on that dream because it wasn't working out. I let people older than me convince me that it was just a pipedream, and that I should go to university and 'get a real job'.

So I did just that. For awhile I thought it was the right thing, but then I just found that my life was missing something. I couldn't figure out what it was, and it took my life to fall into a pit of despair before I started to realise that the creative things I had turned my back on, were actually the things that I needed to pursue.

But how? I had failed at music.

About five years ago I discovered my love for acting, after which I started to pursue that. I started creating videos for Youtube, trying all sorts of content, and then something I never thought would happen again happened - I started writing music again.

The music was much better, because it wasn't trying to be anything, it was just my experiences, feelings, and struggles thrown into songs. It was a form of therapy, and whenever i've struggled in life (so basically always lol), I've normally picked up the guitar and started playing.

It just made sense. Sometimes when I sing, I'm not really performing anymore, I'm just letting out everything i've been battling with, for so many years. It feels good to get it out, to connect with other people over this amazing thing that we call music.

Back to the story. Yes, I was pursuing acting and content creation, but I had a fear when it came to music. Sure, I'd write music here and there, perform on livestreams, and perhaps even pop up at a random open mic night someplace, but truth is, I was scared.

Scared it would break my heart again.

Then the support of friends and the people who supported me for years started pouring in. I started to question it. I started to wonder 'what if?'.

Finally, like everything else in my life right now, I threw caution to the wind and just did it. Cause why not? Second chances are a thing aren't they? What was meant for you, might not have been right for you before, but perhaps it's right for you now.

I don't know what the future holds, but I know this. I'm pursuing music again, and it feels amazing to try one last time. Cause what is life without pursuing what you love?